Screw You, Buddy, Screw You

Get me out of this place

before I cause more damage,

a small price to pay

for building houses out of matchsticks

- Running From Lions, All Time Low

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I hate being a better friend than others are to me. It just sucks. I don't like playing the victim here, but it sure is how I feel.

You see, I'm a planner. I like organizing and taking charge. I'm the one who comes up with some idea or event, invites people, figures out all the details, etc, etc. Even when I try to sit back and just follow along, my friends still come to me as the in-charge person. (Don't get me wrong. I'm not the type of person who takes charge at someone else's get-together or party or anything. I'm not an overtaker)

But I realized tonight, that despite my planned gatherings, my friends never plan anything. Correction: my "friends" never plan anything and invite me to them.

For instance, the fair is in town. I asked 3 different people on 3 different occasions if they wanted to go with me (we all went as a group one day, but I really wanted to go again). All 3 people couldn't go for one reason or another. As it turns out, they've all gone multiple times since then, and didn't care to invite me.

I don't get invited to go to the fair, or the movies, or the bowling alley or whatever. But I'm afraid to step back. Because I'm scared I'd never go out or see my friends unless I'm the one to plan it. Can you even call those people your friends? I'm so lost right now.

I guess it's a good thing I leave for vacation in a week. Then, I'll be gone for three whole weeks and I won't have to deal with any of this. Then, maybe, hopefully, by the time Senior Year begins, this will all be cleared up and I'll be ready to power through this epic year.

So until then: screw you, buddy, SCREW. YOU.

Taylor Swift

Dreaming about the day

When you wake up and find

That what you're looking for

Has been here the whole time

- Taylor Swift, Fearless

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Taylor Swift songs pretty much describe my life. And 95% of the female teen population. She is incredible. I don't understand how anyone could NOT like her. She's so down-to-earth and humble and sweet. After going to her concert back in April, I realize that Taylor's the kind of person you want as your best friend. She started crying onstage because we were screaming forever for her. And she's so energetic and smiling, it's amazing. All I have to say is that her best friend, Abigail (I only know that's she's her best friend because of her song lyrics) is an incredibly lucky and fortunate girl.

That's all for today. I've been listening to TSwift all day.... :)

Change

California girls, we're unforgettable

Daisy dukes, bikinis on top

Sun kissed skin so hot we'll melt your popsicle

- California Gurls, Katy Perry

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School's finally out. Thank the Lord. We survived junior year! Now, it's all downhill from here. Summer's here, and it's time to party! The only thing I'm worried about this summer: boys. Boys, boys, and more boys.

But with boys, comes drama. Do I like him? Do I hate him? Does he like me? Are we flirting? Is he just playing me? What happens after summer? What do I do now?

Let's see how this summer will go. So far, it's not too good. But I guess things can always change

Another Letter

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

- Pink, Dear Mr. President

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This letter is to my Calfornia Congressman.

Dear Congressman,

I’m a 17 year old junior. I recently visited Washington DC through the Close-Up Program. I had the experience of a lifetime where I met kids from across the states, explored all the memorials, and debated domestic issues. On Wednesday, May 19^th, all Close-Up students had a Capitol Hill Day. Close-Up had arranged meetings for us with our respected senators and congress men and women. Foothill students met with Senator Boxer and Feinstein’s staffers, and were severely disappointed to learn that a meeting was not arranged with you. You represent a good majority of our town, and we were looking forward to meeting with you. Rumors said that you didn’t want to meet with us; others said that you were out of town. Whatever the case may be, I’m also disappointed that you were present or willing to be present.

Through Close-Up, we learned that America’s youth has a voice. We have a voice, and we are seldom heard. Close-Up wants to break down those barriers that restrict us from becoming involved. If you met with us, you’d understand as well. To the other staffers, as well as to Congressman Stark (who was the replacement for you), Foothill students posed many intelligent questions. What’s your opinion on the stimulus package? Where’s the morality in Arizona’s new immigration law? Do you support affirmative action? What about “don’t ask, don’t tell”? Should gays have equal rights? Where do you stand on the gun ban proposition? Should the DREAM act for immigrant children be passed? What’s your plan for the Louisiana Oil Spill? Do you place all the blame on BP? As a congressman, what charities are you openly involved with?

This past week at Close-Up has inspired me to become more involved in these issues facing Americans. I’m considering interning for a congress man or woman in the future, and you may just see me working on the Hill one day. America’s youth have a voice, and while Congressman Stark and our senators’ staffers listened, you did not. Please take this into consideration next time you are given a chance to meet with some of today’s youth. As they say, today’s youth are tomorrow’s leaders.

Thank you,

Megan

17 years old

California

Parenthood TV Show

And may you never love in vain

And in my heart you'll always remain

Forever young, forever young

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Letter I emailed to the producers of Parenthood:

Hi there,

I'm a 17 year old junior in California. Junior year is known as the most stressful in high school, and that's true. Yet, I still make time every week to watch Parenthood.

I wanted to thank the show's creators, producers, writers, and cast for diagnosing Max with Asperger's. I volunteer a lot with kids with Autism (an ongoing sports program called E-Soccer and a summer camp called Exceptional Needs Network). I'm also looking into a career to help autistic kids and hopefully find a cure someday soon. My friends don't understand what drives me to work with autistic kids, and they don't see how they inspire me. Through Max on Parenthood, I know there are tons of viewers across the country who are learning more and more each week about these kids. They're special, and they deserve the world. Thank you so much for opening America's eyes to the beauties and wonders of autistic kids.

Megan

17 years old

PS The mom of a child with Asperger's shared this with me: AUTISM= Always Unique Totally Intelligent Sometimes Mysterious

PROM.

It's gonna be a night to remember

Come on now, big fun

It's gonna be the night to last forever

We'll never ever ever forget

- A Night To Remember, HSM3

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Junior Prom is in two days. TWO DAYS! It's crazy how time flies. Growing up, you always talk about prom. (Note: not ball. always, always prom). You pick out what you're going to wear, imagine the limo, dream up the guy, plan the parties, etc. And now it's here.

When my old next door neighbor (she now graduated college) was going to prom, I would go sit in her bedroom and watch her and all her friends get ready for prom. Then I'd go back to my house and watch from the window as her date showed up. And later, as the limo pulled in and all the kids went inside, laughing and smiling. I couldn't WAIT to go to prom.

Now prom is on Saturday. I have my dress. I have my shoes. The boutonniere will be ready tomorrow. I have a pedicure appointment Saturday morning. And my cousin's coming over to do my hair later that day. We're going to take pictures at a friend's house, where they are also serving dinner. At prom, appetizers and desserts will be served; but I think eating will be scarce. Then after, there's between 6 and 13 girls coming over for a midnight breakfast and sleepover. All girls this time, so we can gossip about our dates and boys and so forth. I'm looking forward to it. :)

We have family friends who are coming over to see me get ready before prom. It's going to be so weird, seeing the nine-year-old girl watch in awe (or so I hope) just I used to do. We grow up way too fast. I'm going to Junior Prom!! It's still incredible to think about.

Corruption and Concerts

Rain makes corn,

Corn makes whiskey,

Whiskey makes my baby

Feel a little frisky

-Rain Is a Good Thing, Luke Bryan

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That's it. My friends (and my mom) have officially corrupted me. I have now been converted into a country music loving hillbilly. I hate to admit it, but it's true. Well, I still won't listen to the full-out, honky-donk stuff. That will never happen. I cannot even believe I'm actually enjoying country music.

I just bought over $30 worth of country songs after the Hot Country Nights concert. Oh! The concert! Let's recap of that night...

• we ended up taking BART with my cousin. (I won 2 free tickets, go figure). There was a creepy gangster guy who was checking Meg out the entire time. So funny
• we were, like, the youngest people in the MUSH POT by about 4 or so years
• everyone was drinking. it made me wish that I was legal. a little...
• we quickly made friends. this (totally wasted) girl named Alley came over to us and had us pose with her poster that said "Smile, it's for facebook". Then she thrust her beer, and some other guys' into our hands because we'd "look cooler". So we smiled and took the picture. then she took the beers away, don't worry
• Michelle Branch was the first up. She was pretty good; sang a lot of her old songs
• we had some nice cowboy-hat-wearing men in front of us. one kept leaving and coming back every 10 minutes. it got annoying
• somebody spilled their beer on Casey. poor Casey
• Luke Bryan is gorgeous and hilarious
• I knew most of Blake Shelton's songs
• there was a guy on weed in front of us who was pretty entertaining...
• gotta love dierks bentley
• someone else threw their beer at casey. apparently she's a magnet
• i had a lot of fun for my first country concert. converted to country? guilty.

Now I have to go finish making my t-shirt for country concert #2: Taylor Swift!

PS Note how many times I used "C" words, all on accident. corruption. concert. country. cowboy. casey. convert.