Junior Year Sucks.

I'm flat on the floor

With my head down low

Where the sky can't rain on me anymore

-Flat on the Floor, Carrie Underwood

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Who's ready for summer? I know I am. At least Spring Break starts on Thursday. It's a much-needed hiatus (SAT word!) from school, even though I know I'll have a lot of homework that week. Junior year is so time consuming, stressful, and busy. Junioritis is a thousand times worse than Senioritis for sure. There's so much more to worry about when you're a junior. In case you're interested for some odd reason, here's what I'll be doing the rest of the school year. I have no free weekends until the end of junior year.

Apr 3- country concert with my besties!

Apr 4- easter (obviously)

Apr 5-7- college tours

Apr 10- ACTs

Apr 11- Taylor Swift concert for my birthday prezzie

Apr 17- Prom! (already one of the most stressful days of the year)

Apr 24- this weekend is technically free. but I'll probably do something for my birthday one night

Apr 30- my 17th birthday!

May 1- SAT subject tests

May 2- church confirmation rehearsal

May 4- youth court

May 7- AP USH exam & church confirmation

May 8-9 - AP study weekend. I will be locking myself in my room

May 10- AP Psych class final

May 11- AP Psych exam

May 16-21 - Close Up (school trip to DC!)

May 28-June 1- Five day weekend, probably doing something...

June 5- SATs

June 9-11 - Finals

June 9- dance dress rehearsal

June 12- dance recital

And amongst all of this, I have AP USH review sessions (2x a week), dance (3x a week), and confirmation class (3x a month). Can you say D-E-A-D?

Dancing Through Life (Why I Dance)

Dancing through life

Mindless and careless

Make sure you're where less trouble is rife

-Dancing Through Life, Wicked

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I dance. I compete in jazz, actually. I take 4 classes a week, 3 days at the studio. 2 Ballets, 1 jazz, and a competition rehearsal.

I guess I'm kind of new to this whole "dance" thing. I mean, I danced when I was little, like I'm sure every girl in America did. I quit when I was about 7 years old. In 8th grade, I started dancing again; jazz and tap. Freshman year, I did competition team at my studio. Last year, I chose not to compete because my team friends quit as well. I missed it so much, and now I'm doing company again. The season's almost over, and I know I won't be competing senior year. Company's changed since I was last in it and it doesn't have the same excitement it used to. I'll still take classes for sure though. Why? Let's see...

Because I started dance later on in life, I was always slightly behind. I missed those key 5 years or so where girls my age really became dancers. Nonetheless, I loved dance and kept through it. Even now, I'm definitely not the best in class; but I'm definitely not the worst. There's something about dancing that simply captivates me. The way you tell a story through your body is remarkable. There's a quote I once read that said "Dancing is the language of the soul" or something like that.

One of the reasons I went back and forth with competition team is because I love competing. (Sounds simple, right?) I love the "good" nervous I get when I wait backstage before we go on. I love walking onstage when my dance is called. I love the bright lights blinding you in the eyes. I love the beginning of the music, when you look up and smile from ear to ear as the audience is watching you. I love watching the judges' expression as I dance my heart out in front of them. I love the plastered smile on my face the entire dance. I love the way all the moves come together perfectly in sync with the other dancers on that stage. I love, when the music stops and I take a small bow, the applause that erupts from the audience and judges. I love walking offstage and panting because I can't breathe. Yet, I can't stop smiling after a great performance.

It's a feeling that is so euphoric, so exhilarating, and so exhausting at the same time that you can't help but love it. When I stopped competing after my first year there, I missed that feeling so much. It's hard to describe. I still have that feeling now when I compete, but the rest of dance; the classes, the girls, the attitudes have changed and it's not the same.

Nonetheless, that's why I dance. I can't get enough of being on that stage with the lights and the smiles and the makeup. What can I say? I'm a dancer at heart. :)

I'm No Superman

But I can't do this all on my own.

No, I know.

I'm no Superman, I'm no Superman.

-Superman, Laslo Bane (Scrubs theme song)

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I realized that I never really discussed my blog in general. The web address is "crandamonium", as I hope you've noticed. A word that I'm pretty sure I've coined. It kind of describes my life; crazy + random + pandaemonium.

I'm going to try and actually keep up with this blog. I usually make them, then quit soon thereafter. But this one might actually endure my insane life as a high school junior (aka Hell Year. I'm pretty sure all my teachers got together in August to make sure none of us students had a life outside of school this year).

Every post will start with song lyrics. Simply because music makes the world go round. And it's the perfect remedy to life. Whether you're upset, ecstatic, nervous, mad, happy, sick, or just bored, there's music to accompany your mood.

Belated Welcome!

Take a Bow At the Oscars

That was quite a show; very entertaining.

But it's over now. Go on and take a bow

-Take a Bow, Rihanna

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I was surprised. The Oscars were early, and didn't last very long. Have they always been that way? Anyways, some highlights:

• Loved Miley Cyrus' dress, minus the boob part. It could have been a little more conservative there.
• Miley and Amanda Seyfreid were so cute onstage; you could tell that they were super nervous. They're younger than 18 and are presenting an Academy Award- how cool is that?!
• Sandra Bullock just won 2 Razzies then won tonight. what? Good for her though, her speech was thoughtful
• The girl who plays Precious is very lucky, and I'm sure she knows that. Oprah talked about her, too! Amazing...
• Zac Efron was there. Not sure why, seeing as though he has no nominations or big movies this past year. And he wasn't with V!
• The guy who won best actor (can't remember his name!) was so sincere. He spoke from the heart. And he's been married to the same woman, with NO scandals for 30+ years. Not many Hollywood people can say that
• Gotta love Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin. Two great hosts
• Up is such a cute movie; I just knew that they'd be nominated a lot
• Never seen "The Hurt Locker", but now I'm intrigued. Along with some of those documentaries
• My mom shared with me her love for George Clooney. 4 out of 5 of those nominated for best actor were all old. I don't think they're cute (gross!) but I can see how they can be cute in their early years ;)
• Memorable video for those who died this year. so sad
• Ben Stiller pretty much made my night in his Avatar..ah...facade. Tail included

Big night in Hollywood. If only I could've been there. In another life. As a teen nominee. Wearing a designer dress. With a celebrity date.